Blindly Stumbling...

Well - tonight was the first night that Blind Date felt like work.
I take the FULL weight of this on my own shoulders, of course! One of my basic rules is "what they do is right".

Richard was my fourth Blind Date in this ongoing madness.
He was lovely, British, and 26 - he works as a Health and Safety Inspector (wow!)....
And - he was also on his own personal THIRD date with a sweet gal named Carolyn.
Whether it be that he was young, or English - or just plain-old, admirably gentlemanly and dignified - Richard had me working harder than I have on any of the other dates....

But - there's really nothing wrong with that....because, so what if the show doesn't go the way I'm hoping it will?
What is facinating is how each individual differs in the same situation....

Where other guys eventually made-out with me, Richard was content to call our date "a night", say he'd had a lovely time, and that we should do it again. (sweet!)

It's possible that the lesson for me - is not to choose people in such budding, new, uncertain relationships....There might be too much at stake, and not a great enough level of comfort between the guy on stage and the gal in the audience? I'm not sure....

My deepest regret about tonight, really my only regret - is that I did not get the chance to check in with Richard at the end of the show. The previous guys have all waited around in the lobby and I've had the chance to thank them and say goodnight. Richard was gone by the time I got out of the washroom. I fear that he had a bad time and bolted. I have no idea if this is the case - but my mind goes to the negative. I so want to be sure to give these guys a good time....the thought that he may have hated the experience worries me. He didn't seem too bad during, in spite of being slightly reserved - he laughed a lot, made eye contact, made offers, etc....

Oh - and, I've also started asking my various dates to write about their experience and pass it on to me. I'd like to have asked Richard to do the same....

Well. Maybe these hopes and well wishes will find him out in cyber-space.

Richard - you were fabulous! I learned a TON from you and am grateful.

R