Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Dream

in the dream they ask you to be smaller
to take less space
to come home early, to play your part
you stir
tussle-haired you rub the cobwebs from your eyes
the clock flies - now is no time to wake up
they try to lull you back to sleep...
duck the clock!
throw off the covers!
leap from the bed!
be selfish.
Self - ish.
Be self-like.
What else do you have?

Friday, February 19, 2010

Courage

...there is no such thing as
bad timing
when the fruit is ripe
it falls from the tree

Poetic Moods

Of late I have been revisiting poetry.
Strange.
I love it though...there's something magical about it,
the way the words can sometimes wash over you
and leave you with a FEELING...

Here are two that speak to me in very different ways:

THE CINNAMON PEELER by Michael Ondaatje

If I were a cinnamon peeler
I would ride your bed
and leave the yellow bark dust
on your pillow.

Your breasts and shoulders would reek
you could never walk through markets
without the profession of my fingers
floating over you. The blind would
stumble certain of whom they approached
though you might bathe
under rain gutters, monsoon.

Here on the upper thigh
at this smooth pasture
neighbor to your hair
or the crease
that cuts your back. This ankle.
You will be known among strangers
as the cinnamon peeler's wife.

I could hardly glance at you
before marriage
never touch you
-- your keen nosed mother, your rough brothers.
I buried my hands
in saffron, disguised them
over smoking tar,
helped the honey gatherers...

When we swam once
I touched you in water
and our bodies remained free,
you could hold me and be blind of smell.
You climbed the bank and said

this is how you touch other women
the grasscutter's wife, the lime burner's daughter.
And you searched your arms
for the missing perfume.
and knew
what good is it
to be the lime burner's daughter
left with no trace
as if not spoken to in an act of love
as if wounded without the pleasure of scar.

You touched
your belly to my hands
in the dry air and said
I am the cinnamon
peeler's wife. Smell me.

____________________________________

Sex Without Love by Sharon Olds

How do they do it, the ones who make love
without love? Beautiful as dancers,
gliding over each other like ice-skaters
over the ice, fingers hooked
inside each other's bodies, faces
red as steak, wine, wet as the
children at birth whose mothers are going to
give them away. How do they come to the
come to the come to the God come to the
still waters, and not love
the one who came there with them, light
rising slowly as steam off their joined
skin? These are the true religious,
the purists, the pros, the ones who will not
accept a false Messiah, love the
priest instead of the God. They do not
mistake the lover for their own pleasure,
they are like great runners: they know they are alone
with the road surface, the cold, the wind,
the fit of their shoes, their over-all cardio-
vascular health--just factors, like the partner
in the bed, and not the truth, which is the
single body alone in the universe
against its own best time.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Still...

...nothing has changed...

To be continued...

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Moonstruck

I wish I could write like this:

"The past and the future is a joke to me now. The only thing that's here is you - and me. Love don't make things nice it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren't here to make things perfect. Snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and die. The storybooks are bullshit."

Sigh.